I still remember when I first wet you. In the coliseum, I was shocked you were in the same school as mine and WE HAVE THE SAME JERSEY NUMBER and you played basketball so damn good. That’s why I fell in love with you. 02/08/13 you added me on facebook.. That’s when I had a crush on you then boom! Landian mode. Fuck you for making me fall in love with your lies… At first it was lies but when you told me that you’ll take me seriously, I believed I you. I accepted your flaws. I loved you. I understood you, I really did, your attitude, your shyness, I UNDERSTOOD YOU that’s why I didn’t, or rather, I NEVER GAVE UP ON YOU.
If I knew everything that would happen… I think I’ll still choose being with you because you made me so happy. I know you’ve given me pain but I really really became happy when I was with you.Those times when I tell you to stand in front of me so just I cam look into your lovely eyes. Those sparkles in my eyes when I look at you. I hope you remembered all the happy thoughts and memories of us before you let go. This is so mean to say but I hope you were so damn hurt as much as I am. You just don’t know what the effects you have given me. I always tell myself that I really have to move on but I cannot because I have this hope that everything will be fine… But you! YOU JUST THREW ALL OF THAT AWAY. YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE ME AND THA YOU WILL NEVER EVER GET TIRED OF ME BEING ‘MATAMPUHIN’. I TRUSTED IN YOUR WORDS. YOU SAID YOU WILL “NEVER” LEAVE ME. YOU DAMN BASTARD! YOU’RE SO UNFAIR. SO SO UNFAIR. YOU’VE GIVEN ME PLENTY OF HEART ACHES BUT STILL I CHOSE TO STILL NOT GIVE UP ON YOU. I HAD HOPE IN YOU! I HAD HOPE THAT YOU’LL BECOME A LITTLE BETTER FOR ME. BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOURSELF FOR ME. YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU DON WANT ME GO SUFFER. YOU TOLD ME YOU’LL COURT ME. WHAT HAPPENED POT?! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? Before you left me, I told you I will become less ‘matampuhin’ but you gave up on me, you gave up on us. I NEVER GAVE UP ON YOU. OH MY GOD. WHEN YOU DID SOMETHING VERY WRONG AND I HAVE TO END WHATEVER THE RELATIONSHIP WE HAD, I DID NOT. YOU ASKED FOR MANY CHANCES. ‘LAST CHANCE KI LAST CHANCE’ THEN I ASKED FOR ONLY ONE, TAKE NOTE, “ONLY ONE CHANCE” BUT YOU NEVER DID! That’s how unfair you are! There’s this quote that says ‘kung mahal mo talaga, nagbubulagbulagan ka na’. That time when tiffany tan happened, I know in myself that you were just ‘nakikisakay’ that’s why i told myself and my friends that you have a reason why’d you’ve done that. I WAS SO STUPID, I WAS EVEN THE ONE WHO FIXED US AGAIN. @@ Now, I realized that, if you truly loved me, you won’t do that because you know that I may get hurt. You stupid asshole. IM KINDA AWARE THAT AT FIRST YOU DON’T LOVE ME THAT WAY LIKE WHEN YOU SAY IT, again, I had hope that you will love me as much as I love you. Then one day, I felt that you love me and I was thankful that I did what I did before, (when i fixed us bc of your bullshit). They say I was the first girl you’re taking seriously even you had an ex gf and you said I was the one you first cried for. THAT TIME I WAS SO HAPPY AND MY HOPE RISED SO HIGH, I CAN’T REACH IT. Again, ‘nagpapakatanga nanaman me.’ I’m tired with this bullshit. I JUST REALLY MISS YOU, YOU PIECE OF SHIT. YOU’RE THE SHITIEST PERSON I KNOW BUT STILL, I LOVE YOU!! Those FAITH DECIDE!! Urghhh! Faith said I should continue on loveing you and still not give up.. But after that. YOU GAVE UP ON ME! Whaaaaat?!! SHIT HAPPENS. I always remind you on how much I love you. I hope you still remember how happy we were.. I still have hope that someday our paths will meet again.. Someday, you and I are much mature and better than before.. Maybe, just maybe, someday… We’ll be okay. “Everything’s going to be okay.” P. S. Iloveyousomuch, no words can express how I feel about you. (Someday, when I have moved on, I’ll just laugh about this crap.) 8/18/14"